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Watched yesterday's The Gadget Show and I'm really pissed about the Apple's I[Pod (shuffle/nano)/Tunes/Touch/Phone/Whatever] stuff being the greatest gadget in the world. Even the IPhone's been given the Gadget of the Year 2007. Seriously, I think they are IOverrated and I'll tell you why I hate them more than my Creative stuff...

- They're a pain in a butt when it comes to converting .mp3 files into .aac files and I'm not really a fan of those. They take so long to convert, I'm going to have to smash the Ipod plug in half. Plus, I'm not that patient to have to wait for the files converting and then listen to enjoy.
- IPhone's rubbish. I'm sorry, but at £35 on the monthly contract via O2? Yeah, right. That's a total ripoff! I rather go and buy a Sony Ericsson with Pay as You Go Top-up fee than this. And then it has a rubbish 2 Megapixel camera and the music in there is awful.
- So popular, I'm going to have a fit here. I just hate how one minded the Technology magazines say they're really good. Oh, for God's sake, have you ever heard of the proverb 'Don't judge a book by its cover'. Please, let me find at least one person who hates the IPod/whatever.

So, there you have it. The reasons why I want to buy a Creative Zen M, instead of ICrap stuff.

Quote of the Moment - "ARGH! LEAVE ME ALONE!" - Me, when playing Warriors Orochi and lots of CPU characters are following me. Creepy...

^_^ That was Great

Been watching the Den-O Special Talk Show and here's the list of what I found so great about this:

- The opening scene, Takeru-san and Yuichi-san (well, Yuichi mostly) guessing the Taros' voice actors and got the Kintaros and Ryutaros voices wrong with hilarious results.
- Whoa. I found loads of girls, some couple of loli goth ones, going gaa-gaa over the Imagin, voice actors and the two actors. And yes, I went gaa-gaa, whenever I see Takeru-san.
- Suit actors interview! Wow! This is great; very rare to see them their real selves in person and getting interviewed by Suzuken and Yusa 'Ichimaru Gin' Kouji (btw, those two voice actors have their own radio talk shows in Japan, which might explain the interview part). Just love the Sieg suit actor doing 'the Prince' bow and 'Zu gu takai!' pose. XD
- The songs - Well, Yuichi-san was lip-syncing in the Action Zero one, but by God, he did a good one at pretending to sing. And Double Action wasn't bad as well.
- Climax Jump HIP HOP version with Takeru-san breakdancing in front of the audience. Oooh, I just love actors having a secret ability to do something.
- And finally...Sword Form appearing at the end of the show. That one was surprising for me.

And guess what? TV-N's going to sub this show, which means...<3 I am DEFINITELY CAN'T wait to see this, the Hyper Battle and the rest of the upcoming episodes more than Kiba.

Quote of the Moment - "The viewers were mostly 2 - 30 years old female." - Takenoko from the TV-N group commenting about the gender majority of the Special Talk Show audience, which includes me. Too bad I didn't go to Japan and go gaa-gaa over them. T_T

YOSH! Xmas comes early for me!

From the box that contains a lot of Chibi Voice I-doll figures...



To a complete set of the six Den-O characters! Complete get indeed. Okay, so it's technically four, since Momo, Sword Form and MomoRyo are the same person.

Quote of the Moment - "[Insert random Japanese-gibberish nonsense]" - My older sister making fun of my collection and the catchphrases. > _ <

Mindless Brain Coming In

Eurgh. It's nearly 2 in the morning and here I am, typing like a mindless zombie, attemping to do some last minute coursework done for the course. Because, let's face it, no matter how much you really want to avoid, if it's BA (HONS) Whatever Degree, YOU'LL HAVE TO DO THE ESSAY, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT.

And time for some random bit: You know, when I was watching Kamen Rider Den-O, I always think that the suit actors must have watched a lot of silent movies somewhere and I was pretty amazed that the way they acted reminds me of seeing as a homage to Charlie Chaplin and Buster Keaton; past time's two great legends of silent films. And I bet, Takaiwa Seiji-san (the suit actor for Momotaros/Kamen Rider Den-O) must have studied Chaplin and Keaton's movements very well. Hence, all that funny and hilarious stuff that I've been watching their show for a while now, including his convincing and brilliant performance in his Climax Form stuff (must have been really hard to play all four characters in one body); I've got to give him some great respect for all his hard work. God, now I want to watch Chaplin's 'The Great Dictator' sometime, even though it's not technically silent.

Quote of the Moment - "hrhhjdhdgsfgdghdhddflfhfglhh;l" - someone in the Internet, discovering something really unexpected happened.

BEST One Hit-Wonder Music Video Promo. EVER!

Or not, depending on your view if you haven't seen Kamen Rider Den-O. This is going to be in the top five Christmas Chart hits, isn't it?



Come to think of it, the Taros Imagin singing in front of their microphones really reminds me of seeing the British pop quartet, Take That in their 'Rule the World' PV for some odd reason. I bet the suit actors were having a really fun time pretending to sing in front of a virtual audience. XD

Quote of the Moment - "Ii jan! Ii jan! Sugee jan!?" - Climax Jump (either the Den-O Form or the Denliner Form is fine)

Now, This is How You Make a Good Film

Recently at a Friday night (okay, late), I've been to watch Pan's Labyrinth with my sisters and yes, I must say, I should give the Hellboy and Sin City director lots of credit for making this incredibly excellent film. Basically, this is a fantasy/period drama (taking place in the middle of a WWII-Spanish mill) film about a young girl named Ofelia, who is the reincarnation of the Underworld's Princess, Moanna, and she has to do three tasks in order to return to her Underworld, as she is the rightful heir to the throne. Yeah, despite the somewhat cliched description that I've made, the storyline is really good; with really good actors and actresses, including the main herorine, portraying their role convincingly. Even that Captain Bastard as I dubbed him, is really convincing to play as the arsehole character. I just love the herorine, because A) she's pretty a strong-willed lass, despite her age and looks and B) she's not afraid to die, even it means it's going to cost her life.

Storyline-wise, I just love it; really good fairytale, with none of that cheesy Hollywood-crap that was in the film and the ending is what I should describe it a bittersweet story, even though that there are scenes that would be really scary/gross for non-horror fans. If you want to know what really happens, then go buy/rent/borrow or your friend's/sibling's/family member's DVD and check it out. This is one film that you should NOT avoid and a MUST-SEE for all you Del Toro fans.

Quote of the Moment - "Damn bleach" - Me, after applying the spray to the laptop monitor. I swear, I'm never going to use that thing again. It stinks. >_<

Who Needs Heroes when you have Villains as the Main Characters?

After recently finished reading the children novel, H.I.V.E. - Higher Intsitution of Villainious Education - via my younger sister's permission as she bought the book; I can now say a few things about this book:

- Finally, a book about the villains being in the spotlight, instead of heroes who have the destiny to fight against them.

- Otto Malpense, the main character and anti-hero of the story, kinda reminds me of that short white-haired boy, whose name escapes me, from BLEACH, only he's not a high ranking Shinigami/Soul Reaper captain or something and that he uses his wit.

- It's really funny. No seriously, by the time you're going to read this book, you will forget that this is a Harry Potter-a-like story with emo characters in it. Well, okay, there is one in H.I.V.E, but he doesn't act all emo later on.

- Lots of twists and turns and better writing than HP book 7. Plus likable characters, even though they ARE villains. And you will sympathise Dr Nero, the headmaster of H.I.V.E. later on. I'm not going to spoil the storyline.

All in all, I'm definitely going to buy the second book, just for my younger sister's late birthday present. And oh yes, if young/old teenage girls and young female adults are going to pick H.I.V.E up, I'll bet there's going to be lots of yaoi fanfiction/fanart of Otto Malpense and Wing Fanchu (the second main male character) doing some 'inappropriate' stuff to each other. What?

Quote of the Moment - "I'm on the verge of breaking my pencil." - Me on that life-drawing teacher telling me that I drew the naked woman's head to small.

The Force is TOO Strong!

After finish playing the original Shadow Hearts, my mind now wants me to play Shadow Hearts II. And now, I can't stop it. It makes me want to go down memory lane, like Terranigma a few years ago.

So much for replaying From the New World just to get that Bad ending, which I couldn't be bothered as the storyline and characters didn't have enough 'spark' and substance on what makes the Shadow Hearts series so good.

Come back Sancoth/Nautilus! All is forgiven! Please don't end up dissolving like Clover Studios (team that did Okami)!

Quote of the Moment - "He acts like a dog." My younger sister talking about that robot from Crimson Sea 2 in my memory card or something.

And Why I Thought Yuri was Better than Johnny

Just been finishing playing on the original Shadow Hearts recently and I must say, I actually like the first two games better than From the New World than I've just finished. And I could tell you why...

1. Characters - Yuri is the best male main character in the whole of the PS2 RPG range. You can forget about Vaan from FFXII or Cloud from VII. He's the anti-hero and does everything opposite to what the main male typical RPG characters should do. He's sarcastic, a bit of a pervert (oh come on, when he picked up that 'Erotic Book' from the first game, he refuses to exchange with Roger Bacon, because 'it was more valuable than the Pulse Tract' XD), has really got a dark sense of humour and above all else, he's a total badass. Reminds me of Tendou from Kamen Rider Kabuto, only without the 'Path to Heaven' crap and less arrogance. Plus, I found ALL of the SH1-2 characters have greater and more charming personalities than FTNW.

2. Storyline - I didn't particularly like FTNW's storyline, because it felt more like a tragic love story between Killer and Lady (two main villains) than really focusing on Johnny and Co. Plus it felt a little short on the story than I've realised when I played the game. The first one was short too, but that didn't stop me playing further as it was more interesting than FTNW, but it's the second game that actually nails on how should a sequel be. Lots of twists and turns, funny, scary and sad at the same time. No, I'm not giving you the in-depth stoyline, just go to Wiki or something.

3. Voice acting - Okay, Shadow Hearts 1 was a bit of a mixed bag (I couldn't stand Sea Mother's 'SHLOOP' sound effects and some of the voice acting are either a bit of a hit and miss occasionally) and so did FTNW (I'm lookinng at Frank here, along with Roger Bacon, but Ricardo's Spanish-accent voice just blew me away as it actually fits his personality); but neither of these can topple SHII's for really good reasons: A) All of the voice-acting really fits in the character that they're supposed to sound like and thus, enhancing them really more to make them even more likable. And I definitely love Yuri's voice. His sarcastic nature really fits his somewhat rough voice and Joachim is full of lolz. And Alice's voice is definitely an improvement and so does Albert Simon (I hated his voice as he reminds of a typical villain in the first game, but in the second, he's a bit more likable now, with his voice becoming more mature and gentle) and B) no matter how many years has it been since I last played SHII, it's always been the spoken dialogue that I still remember (I just can't get 'Yuri tricking Lenny' bit out and made me laugh, even now). Forget about Kingdom Hearts - the 'other' Hearts or any other Square Enix games, not every RPG, including FFXII and FFVII, can topple the best voice acting in the game that I've been listening.

And finally...

4. Humour - The first Shadow Hearts that I've played, surprisingly has so much more humour than FTNW, but it only came second place, being SHII being the funniest out of the three. There's so many scenes in that game that I had no choice, but to laugh out loud...and I mean really LOUD. FTNW has humour too, though for some strange reasons, it wasn't that 'LOL' when I saw the scenes; more like 'WTF' to me. Yeah, I know SH and SHII were very dark in terms of its storyline and atmosphere, but there was so many funny scenes that are scattered in many places and even some of them even in unexpected places. Like the time in SHII as I was fighting Garan for the last time in the main storyline and while he was too busy talking some 'YOU WILL DIE' stuff, the Kurando, Lucia and Anatasia were looking at his pillow he was sitting and Yuri and the rest of the party were discussing about the same thing and when Garan ask for his final request, this is what Yuri said...

"That pillow...where can I get one?"

...and at the end of the boss battle, Yuri was still wondering about Garan's pillow and felt disappointed he doesn't know where to get one. XD And don't get me started about the Man Festival and the 'other' alternative ending to both the bad and the good, but in the Man Festival sidequest, it was all Fourth-Wall breaking chaos that I found it hilarous and at the end, let's just say this wasn't the gift that I has hoping for. XD

And the conclusion is...if you want the characters, storyline, gameplay and humour all rolled into one, try going for the first two Shadow Hearts games (good luck finding the first one; I had trouble finding that game, until my younger sis bought the game for my birthday, albeit without the instruction manual); FTNW is great too, but you'll be disappointed by the lack of things of what made the first two so great.

Aw man, I feel like I should play the second game again, after playing the original and third game. So, should I play II again?

Quote of the Moment - "You can't be serious...Not in such a pure, clean, Mega-hit RPG as this...!" - Yuri Hyuga from Shadow Hearts II commenting about the Man Festival. God, I can't stop laughing, even though I haven't played it since 2005.

That's Not How God Wanted

That's it. I'm tired of nightly Prayer sessions with a family. I'm tired of praying to God via the Church, which I have great delusion about the Pope and its shady Cardinals and clearly there is something wrong with the Vietnamese Catholic Church. Oh come on, I don't see my cousin saying prayers with his family when I used to do sleepovers at their house and the rest of my mother's side and even my father's side (in America with lots of really religious Catholic families ironically) don't really pray as they want to. I just really hate on being forced to pray as a family altogether ever since that priest (which I blamed him namelessly) in Birmingham tell my dad that it was a good idea to pray as a family every night somewhere over a couple of years ago.

Unfortunately, I'm having none of it, as it seems this idea came into something that I thought of being like in a communist country (not saying if it's China or Vietnam itself), where you were forced to do something that you don't like altogether. Whatever happened to nightly individual prayers that you can get away with by shutting the down and not really praying all of the time?

Oh sure, I'm going to get flamed by the Vietnamese Catholic Church and other Catholics, but this is the truth. Admittedly, I only pray to someone up in the clouds, which is neither God nor Jesus, but the Virgin Mary; when I'm in deep shit and my life is getting worse by every day, but that's just the only in the last resort. I just want to do something in action, rather than praying like a religious fanatic and let God and the miracle do all of the work.

Nightly family prayers can only work with younger children, but with teenagers and young adults straight away, that's impossible to do, as they start to question about the existance of God and whether it's the Church who's in some conspiracy to say that they over exploited Jesus's intentions or not and they get more relunctant to be with a family for a nightly prayer every night and there would be students out partying at night or just saying an excuse they've got this last-minute essay they need to finish, before the next morning. I've got to tell that priest that the system that he told my dad to do is just simply not working for the target market audience (and come up with a graphic/advertising design plan, so that I can have money). And I've got to tell my younger sister that I'm an adult and I can do whatever I want and tell her that she's an adult too and she would have to stop being a mummy or daddy's pet once in a while.

Quote of the Moment - "Wrong person." Gintoki and Shinpachi from Gintama

When Insanity Has a Place in History

For some odd reason, I started to watched Gintama recently and the result was a real laugh-out-loud JUMP anime. I just couldn't stop laughing from every episode.

Well, okay. I'm not into JUMP anime that has fights lasting for five episodes, BUT then they're too busy powering up for another few episodes; with exceptions to Death Note (well, I only read the manga, but the anime looks a bit...meh), Rurouni Kenshin and Busou Renkin. However, Gintama is such an extremely funny JUMP anime, that I can watch it easily, without ever knowing to get confused with the storyline or be bored with the really long fight, only to be powering up and then the fight took longer. So what I like about Gintama more than BLEACH or Dragonball Z or other JUMP manga/anime:

- There are a few serious moments that are sweet, though that usually sweep aside and let the chaos come in.
- The characters. Finally, not one of them are EMO imo. I mean, everyone has a colourful personality and all of them, except for Shinpachi (the guy with glasses who's normal, but then again, he's funny too), are really odd and funny in their own way.
- The anime doesn't take itelf really seriously, thus making fun of Gintoki himself and the rest of the gang. Plus they usually break the fourth wall of a typical JUMP anime.
- The episodes themselves are short and thus seem to have no main storyline whatsoever, other than the fact Gintoki was in a war, but have left for some reason.
- It's extremely funny. REALLY EXTREMELY FUNNY. I just couldn't stop laughing at seeing from the Gin-tachi going on misadventures to Sougo trying to kill Toushi with extreme methods just to get the Vice Commander position and then make a riduculous excuse to him (though he was already aware of that).
- I'm really surprised Gintama has so many parodies of anime, manga, video game, real life and even Toku itself.

Aaw man. Now I know why Gintama's been such a huge hit in Japan. And I didn't know the manga-ka behind the series was actually trying to pay his student debts off while drawing for JUMP.

Quote of the Moment - "I just want an electric fan!" - Sataka Gintoki from Gintama

I Told Her I'll Be Pissed...

...when I post this to my blog.



Now, I'm very angry at my older sister for abusing my laptop. I'll never forgive her for that. The next time she comes abusing my poor laptop, I'll make a laptop that she cannot bear. >:(

Quote of the Moment - "When are you going to play?" - My younger sister asking me a million times so much, I just gave up saying 'yes'.

In Which My Paypal Account is Going to Suffer

Aaaw man, I sooooo want those figures!

*Rushes off to the HLJ site...*

Quote of the Moment - "I had a hamster called Sephiroth." - Lucrecia on the Lucrecia/Hojo Gold Saucer Date trip from FFVII. God bless that girl for making this funny video.

Bashing Younger Sibling Time!

Oh God, what is wrong with my younger sister?! Acting like she still got her 'teach-me-everything' inside her brain, always trying to be good to our mum and dad, which all adds to the absolutely opposite of me. My older sister can leave this behind as she already became an adult, but to be honest, I would rather let see my younger sister turn into a proper adult who can think for herself, rather than saying out loud to tell me my head is a size of shoe and that hers is like all things inside Wikipedia and out. And the way she told me about it was really offensive.

What I can describe best about my younger sister is that she's like a total Political Correctness machine gone berserk when it came to obeying parents and what really annoys me the most is that she's not the younger sister that I knew, since at a very young age. We were young, rebellious; always being so curious. But by the time we were old, I still have my curious trait intact, whereas my younger sister just abandoned and live in an oppressed world where your insanity is wiped clean.

In other words, this what happened last night; arguing each other to see who can have my bedroom, but I'm having none of that, because I need my bedroom to SLEEP, STUDY (well, okay not studying, but more like drawing things for University) AND GETTING CHANGED, but all that my younger sister has is that PC machine stuck in 'Nanny Mode' and trying to beat the crap out of me. And I hate that sort; younger siblings trying to turn me into them; being a emotionless git who always going to say 'yes' to my parents. Sorry, but I'm going to tell my younger sister that I do things the way I like and being an anarchist to a family is a nice change. Even my older sister was one of them. Except I'm going on to a different path. I'm going to teach my younger sister that there's always a time where you sometimes do need to break their laws and just do what you have to do. I'm going to abandon our sisterly ways and get her 'Always-Not-thinking-about-her-actions-and-tries-to-be-the-parents'-gold-star-attention' out of her systems.

Quote of the Moment - "She's crazy!" - My younger sister, *coughHANHcough*, describing about me and my personality. Good thing, my younger sister has never touched a blog and then write back on how much she's pisses me off back as I pissed her in the past on my blog entries. And better if she never started a blog account in the first place.

IT'S TOO BIG!!!

Been to Ikea in Ashton today, but let me tell you one thing...IT'S FRICKIN' HUGE! Both outside and inside! I mean look at the photo below!

And if that isn't enough, the store inside was confusing as my older sister and I were trying to find a nice desk, but it ended up like one hell of a maze. T-T Luckily for me, I know what the Ikea map system is like the last time I came (that was with my older sister and my dad at Warrington, but the size of the store wasn't that bad), but even the perils of 'Follow the Arrows' trail had cursed us with getting lost in such a huge store. And if that wasn't bad enough, the queue for the check-out is ridiculously long, but thankfully my older sister was paying by card and after some trouble (and a hot dog) we finally got what I want for (BTW it's a desk), went to the car park with no troubles on packing the boxes and went home. One piece of advice if you have the nearest Ikea store: Whatever you do, don't follow the arrows. You'll get lost easily. And go to the toilet before entering the showroom.

And just for a little bonus, here's a picture of Ryutaros laying down on some Swedish name rug. I wish I had one, but at roughly £60? Yeah, right! Hmm, all that Ikea experience, makes me want to make a Den-O/Ikea crossover fanfiction. Yeah, maybe I should make one right away!

And sorry, no QOTM. My throat's a little dry and sore.

And you thought Cat Fights weren't the only thing girls do

Today, my older sister and I have a sibling fight. Well, it's not one of those Cat Fights literally, but both of us have a really on-off relationship with each other. In fact, I love her when I feel depressed and that I needed help, but I also hate her, because she always thinks that she's the boss and that she tells me something that I disagree with her and that I would rather take things my way. And the same thing goes for hobbies, academic skills and interests. Worse still, she always tries to force me into something that not in a million years that I become her and if she still tries to make me become a better person, I rather do this myself.

And so the cat fight begins. She tries to make the offensive, I block her with my defensive skills up and manages to get away. If my older sister has read this blog entry, I would have been in deep trouble, because this blog is how I verey personally feel towards them and I'm going to have to explain, which I'm unprepared.

One thing to say to my older sister: *Raises a middle finger gesture* Me love controversy. I rather be kind to everyone and my younger sister than you. You always think of me on the outside, rather than the inside on what I'm really saying.

Quote of the Moment - "Oh shi-" Me when in deep trouble. I'm really hoping that my older sister doesn't know how to write a blog and then discover my blog.

Extremely Happy!

I am absolutely, positively happy about being successfully granted an internal transfer from Graphics to VFX (Visual Effets) in University. Now I can spend three years making my dream come true on getting into the video games industry. Just need to sort the enrolment out and I'll be set for the rest of my year.

So, You're Saying that you don't like women in real life?

Right, that's it! I'm now completely disgusted of what those men over at Rangerboard think of Hana during the Den-O discussion.

And to Black Fang and the other few men who think that Hana is useless: *Uses the middle finger on her left hand*

If you think that Hana is really useless in the last several episodes, then why do the Taros Imagin are not wrecking havoc inside Ryotaro's body, as well as outisde, if it wasn't for her keeping them in line from getting the poor boy in more trouble than he would have expected?! Or how about the time when young girls in Japan watching Den-O need a female role model, like her, so that they can be stronger in the future and stand up to them when they feel they've been hurt? Have you even thought about the kids who are younger than yourselves who needed a good role model than yourselvves?! For Christ's sake, you people should know that Kamen Rider Den-O is meant to be towards for young children, who are still learning and growing up. And you people, including Black Fang, have you got any shame that you're just being selfish towards others, including women in real life?

And if my evidence wasn't enough, how about strong women, like Hana, in dramas (whether it's Japanese or global), other Toku shows, anime, manga, video games, movies and other type of media? And here's just a few examples:

• Chun Hyang from CLAMP's Legend of Chun Hyang manga
• Rukia and Orihime from BLEACH
• Takiko from the manga; Fushigi Yuugi: Genbu Kaiden
• Chun Li from the Street Fighter series
• Akira and Izm from the Akihabara@DEEP TV series
• Mia Fey from the Ace Attonery series
• Martha Jones from Doctor Who
• Osaka from Azumanga Daioh (well okay, she's not really the type of strong women, but she's the recently most influenental character the world has ever seen)
• Aerith Gainsborough from Final Fantasy VII
• Fuu from Samurai Champloo (she's a bit like Hana, only she's the one keeping Jin and Mugen in line)
• Asuna from Mahou Sensei Negima
• Sakura from Cardcaptor Sakura
• Lara Croft from the Tomb Raider series
• Karou from Rurouni Kenshin
• Tokiko from Busou Renkin
• Jun Kazama from the Tekken series
• Zelda from the Legend of Zelda
• Lisa and Maggie Simpson from the Simpsons

And that's just more than a list. There's also girls and women, including me in real life who watches Den-O and when I saw your comment, I was deeply offended by you. So, in other words, do you hate women in real life who have very strong personalities and able to shut the men up or when they stand up for themselves to men who feel they are like second-rate citizens? Do you prefer women who are annoying, naive and weak-willed? Are you guys really one-minded if you don't like girls, who at first, look useless, only that they are very important? If you're like Black Fang from the Rangerboard forums, then I suggest you go out, take another hobby besides watching Toku, and see how you look at women in real life, as well as in fiction. There, I hope that opens your eyes men.

And as for you, Black Fang, WHY DON'T YOU WATCH ANOTHER TOKU SHOW BESIDES THE KAMEN RIDER SERIES, LIKE LION MARU G OR WECKER SIGNA OR EVEN GUYFRED?! OR EVEN WATCH AN ANIME SHOW AT LEAST ONCE?! OR EVEN BETTER, TAKE ANOTHER HOBBY BESIDES WATCHING!!! GEEZ, it's like your future is going to worse than bleak for you.

Quote of the Moment - "For thine is the high school, the home and the kokatsu, A! MEN" - The Osaka Prayer that I found on the /azu/ board.

The Problem with Nightly Prayers (or why being a Catholic isn't working for me)

Most of my family will never going to understand me of why I skip nightly prayers for most of the time (that's pretty much tradition to Vietnamese Catholic families, but I don't see my cousin's family do that or the majojrity of the Vietnamese families themselves) is because of this: My most lame excuse is that I went to the bathroom for so long, but that isn't my true reason for this - it's my struggle to accept that there is a God and that I should say some prayers to him is the one that I can't accept the fact, plus the fact that being a Catholic makes me feel un-enlighten. It's a good thing neither of my family members are going to read this blog, since none of them has got a blog and start doing some emo entries on me (well, at least my mum's not computer-literate).

Because I was brought as a Catholic, my dad (the strongest Catholic of all my family) expects me to do some Catholic things, while at the same time blend in with normal stuff. However, as I grew up and my dad wants everyone to say prayers every night, I just simply lost myself between being an agnostic or being an atheist, because when I tried to pray to God night after night, the expected results aren't always working and then afterwards, I gave up that praying isn't working to someone who neither exists nor just made-up and that I should put my faith into myself and start doing things to get the work done, instead on relying Him.

Another reason is that I have secretly got manic depression and have some suicidal thoughts in my head. Yes, I was the middle child, but neither my parents nor my older sister really cared for or how I'm actually feeling, because if I say things that's anything controversial or something to do suicidal, then they want me to get psychiatric help. But that doesn't work for me, because the specialist never thoroughly looked at me - he or she just looked what's on the outside with the body language, instead of what's really inside my mind. So I keep those thoughts to myself and only tell my darkest secrets to someone that truly understands on what I feel. The same goes for my disillusions of my spiritual enlightenment of being a Catholic.

And there's no way I'm going to convert to Jehovah's Witness (too many people say that modern medicine = No-no); Evangelical Christian (their high-energy music about how great Jesus Christ is, is just too much for me, they make me want to commit suicide); Islam (oh no, I'm not ready to give up alcohol forever); Scientology (Eeew, who would want to believe Tom Cruise and the silly little Church that has some issues with animals) or any other cult religion. They're just wanna make me commit suicide after one day of joining.

*Sigh* I rather want to enjoy life without the need of a Prayer than doing that.

Quote of the Moment - "I knew it! Cheesy storyline!" - My younger sister talking about Hoshigami Remix.

Woohoo! Got Someone Converted!

I managed to convince my younger sister to watch the JDrama, Akihabara@Deep after I told her the basic storyline and that it had some anime and manga references in there.

After watching the first episode (btw, this is a Director's Cut version we were watching), she found is very amusing and she likes it! ^_^

Oh yeah! Next stop, attempting to make her watch Kamen Rider Den-O!

Quote of the Moment - "P-p-p-p-p-p-planning Time!" - Page from Akihabara@Deep. God, I love this show more than Densha Otoko!