That's Not How God Wanted

That's it. I'm tired of nightly Prayer sessions with a family. I'm tired of praying to God via the Church, which I have great delusion about the Pope and its shady Cardinals and clearly there is something wrong with the Vietnamese Catholic Church. Oh come on, I don't see my cousin saying prayers with his family when I used to do sleepovers at their house and the rest of my mother's side and even my father's side (in America with lots of really religious Catholic families ironically) don't really pray as they want to. I just really hate on being forced to pray as a family altogether ever since that priest (which I blamed him namelessly) in Birmingham tell my dad that it was a good idea to pray as a family every night somewhere over a couple of years ago.

Unfortunately, I'm having none of it, as it seems this idea came into something that I thought of being like in a communist country (not saying if it's China or Vietnam itself), where you were forced to do something that you don't like altogether. Whatever happened to nightly individual prayers that you can get away with by shutting the down and not really praying all of the time?

Oh sure, I'm going to get flamed by the Vietnamese Catholic Church and other Catholics, but this is the truth. Admittedly, I only pray to someone up in the clouds, which is neither God nor Jesus, but the Virgin Mary; when I'm in deep shit and my life is getting worse by every day, but that's just the only in the last resort. I just want to do something in action, rather than praying like a religious fanatic and let God and the miracle do all of the work.

Nightly family prayers can only work with younger children, but with teenagers and young adults straight away, that's impossible to do, as they start to question about the existance of God and whether it's the Church who's in some conspiracy to say that they over exploited Jesus's intentions or not and they get more relunctant to be with a family for a nightly prayer every night and there would be students out partying at night or just saying an excuse they've got this last-minute essay they need to finish, before the next morning. I've got to tell that priest that the system that he told my dad to do is just simply not working for the target market audience (and come up with a graphic/advertising design plan, so that I can have money). And I've got to tell my younger sister that I'm an adult and I can do whatever I want and tell her that she's an adult too and she would have to stop being a mummy or daddy's pet once in a while.

Quote of the Moment - "Wrong person." Gintoki and Shinpachi from Gintama

When Insanity Has a Place in History

For some odd reason, I started to watched Gintama recently and the result was a real laugh-out-loud JUMP anime. I just couldn't stop laughing from every episode.

Well, okay. I'm not into JUMP anime that has fights lasting for five episodes, BUT then they're too busy powering up for another few episodes; with exceptions to Death Note (well, I only read the manga, but the anime looks a bit...meh), Rurouni Kenshin and Busou Renkin. However, Gintama is such an extremely funny JUMP anime, that I can watch it easily, without ever knowing to get confused with the storyline or be bored with the really long fight, only to be powering up and then the fight took longer. So what I like about Gintama more than BLEACH or Dragonball Z or other JUMP manga/anime:

- There are a few serious moments that are sweet, though that usually sweep aside and let the chaos come in.
- The characters. Finally, not one of them are EMO imo. I mean, everyone has a colourful personality and all of them, except for Shinpachi (the guy with glasses who's normal, but then again, he's funny too), are really odd and funny in their own way.
- The anime doesn't take itelf really seriously, thus making fun of Gintoki himself and the rest of the gang. Plus they usually break the fourth wall of a typical JUMP anime.
- The episodes themselves are short and thus seem to have no main storyline whatsoever, other than the fact Gintoki was in a war, but have left for some reason.
- It's extremely funny. REALLY EXTREMELY FUNNY. I just couldn't stop laughing at seeing from the Gin-tachi going on misadventures to Sougo trying to kill Toushi with extreme methods just to get the Vice Commander position and then make a riduculous excuse to him (though he was already aware of that).
- I'm really surprised Gintama has so many parodies of anime, manga, video game, real life and even Toku itself.

Aaw man. Now I know why Gintama's been such a huge hit in Japan. And I didn't know the manga-ka behind the series was actually trying to pay his student debts off while drawing for JUMP.

Quote of the Moment - "I just want an electric fan!" - Sataka Gintoki from Gintama

I Told Her I'll Be Pissed...

...when I post this to my blog.



Now, I'm very angry at my older sister for abusing my laptop. I'll never forgive her for that. The next time she comes abusing my poor laptop, I'll make a laptop that she cannot bear. >:(

Quote of the Moment - "When are you going to play?" - My younger sister asking me a million times so much, I just gave up saying 'yes'.

In Which My Paypal Account is Going to Suffer

Aaaw man, I sooooo want those figures!

*Rushes off to the HLJ site...*

Quote of the Moment - "I had a hamster called Sephiroth." - Lucrecia on the Lucrecia/Hojo Gold Saucer Date trip from FFVII. God bless that girl for making this funny video.

Bashing Younger Sibling Time!

Oh God, what is wrong with my younger sister?! Acting like she still got her 'teach-me-everything' inside her brain, always trying to be good to our mum and dad, which all adds to the absolutely opposite of me. My older sister can leave this behind as she already became an adult, but to be honest, I would rather let see my younger sister turn into a proper adult who can think for herself, rather than saying out loud to tell me my head is a size of shoe and that hers is like all things inside Wikipedia and out. And the way she told me about it was really offensive.

What I can describe best about my younger sister is that she's like a total Political Correctness machine gone berserk when it came to obeying parents and what really annoys me the most is that she's not the younger sister that I knew, since at a very young age. We were young, rebellious; always being so curious. But by the time we were old, I still have my curious trait intact, whereas my younger sister just abandoned and live in an oppressed world where your insanity is wiped clean.

In other words, this what happened last night; arguing each other to see who can have my bedroom, but I'm having none of that, because I need my bedroom to SLEEP, STUDY (well, okay not studying, but more like drawing things for University) AND GETTING CHANGED, but all that my younger sister has is that PC machine stuck in 'Nanny Mode' and trying to beat the crap out of me. And I hate that sort; younger siblings trying to turn me into them; being a emotionless git who always going to say 'yes' to my parents. Sorry, but I'm going to tell my younger sister that I do things the way I like and being an anarchist to a family is a nice change. Even my older sister was one of them. Except I'm going on to a different path. I'm going to teach my younger sister that there's always a time where you sometimes do need to break their laws and just do what you have to do. I'm going to abandon our sisterly ways and get her 'Always-Not-thinking-about-her-actions-and-tries-to-be-the-parents'-gold-star-attention' out of her systems.

Quote of the Moment - "She's crazy!" - My younger sister, *coughHANHcough*, describing about me and my personality. Good thing, my younger sister has never touched a blog and then write back on how much she's pisses me off back as I pissed her in the past on my blog entries. And better if she never started a blog account in the first place.

IT'S TOO BIG!!!

Been to Ikea in Ashton today, but let me tell you one thing...IT'S FRICKIN' HUGE! Both outside and inside! I mean look at the photo below!

And if that isn't enough, the store inside was confusing as my older sister and I were trying to find a nice desk, but it ended up like one hell of a maze. T-T Luckily for me, I know what the Ikea map system is like the last time I came (that was with my older sister and my dad at Warrington, but the size of the store wasn't that bad), but even the perils of 'Follow the Arrows' trail had cursed us with getting lost in such a huge store. And if that wasn't bad enough, the queue for the check-out is ridiculously long, but thankfully my older sister was paying by card and after some trouble (and a hot dog) we finally got what I want for (BTW it's a desk), went to the car park with no troubles on packing the boxes and went home. One piece of advice if you have the nearest Ikea store: Whatever you do, don't follow the arrows. You'll get lost easily. And go to the toilet before entering the showroom.

And just for a little bonus, here's a picture of Ryutaros laying down on some Swedish name rug. I wish I had one, but at roughly £60? Yeah, right! Hmm, all that Ikea experience, makes me want to make a Den-O/Ikea crossover fanfiction. Yeah, maybe I should make one right away!

And sorry, no QOTM. My throat's a little dry and sore.

And you thought Cat Fights weren't the only thing girls do

Today, my older sister and I have a sibling fight. Well, it's not one of those Cat Fights literally, but both of us have a really on-off relationship with each other. In fact, I love her when I feel depressed and that I needed help, but I also hate her, because she always thinks that she's the boss and that she tells me something that I disagree with her and that I would rather take things my way. And the same thing goes for hobbies, academic skills and interests. Worse still, she always tries to force me into something that not in a million years that I become her and if she still tries to make me become a better person, I rather do this myself.

And so the cat fight begins. She tries to make the offensive, I block her with my defensive skills up and manages to get away. If my older sister has read this blog entry, I would have been in deep trouble, because this blog is how I verey personally feel towards them and I'm going to have to explain, which I'm unprepared.

One thing to say to my older sister: *Raises a middle finger gesture* Me love controversy. I rather be kind to everyone and my younger sister than you. You always think of me on the outside, rather than the inside on what I'm really saying.

Quote of the Moment - "Oh shi-" Me when in deep trouble. I'm really hoping that my older sister doesn't know how to write a blog and then discover my blog.

Extremely Happy!

I am absolutely, positively happy about being successfully granted an internal transfer from Graphics to VFX (Visual Effets) in University. Now I can spend three years making my dream come true on getting into the video games industry. Just need to sort the enrolment out and I'll be set for the rest of my year.

So, You're Saying that you don't like women in real life?

Right, that's it! I'm now completely disgusted of what those men over at Rangerboard think of Hana during the Den-O discussion.

And to Black Fang and the other few men who think that Hana is useless: *Uses the middle finger on her left hand*

If you think that Hana is really useless in the last several episodes, then why do the Taros Imagin are not wrecking havoc inside Ryotaro's body, as well as outisde, if it wasn't for her keeping them in line from getting the poor boy in more trouble than he would have expected?! Or how about the time when young girls in Japan watching Den-O need a female role model, like her, so that they can be stronger in the future and stand up to them when they feel they've been hurt? Have you even thought about the kids who are younger than yourselves who needed a good role model than yourselvves?! For Christ's sake, you people should know that Kamen Rider Den-O is meant to be towards for young children, who are still learning and growing up. And you people, including Black Fang, have you got any shame that you're just being selfish towards others, including women in real life?

And if my evidence wasn't enough, how about strong women, like Hana, in dramas (whether it's Japanese or global), other Toku shows, anime, manga, video games, movies and other type of media? And here's just a few examples:

• Chun Hyang from CLAMP's Legend of Chun Hyang manga
• Rukia and Orihime from BLEACH
• Takiko from the manga; Fushigi Yuugi: Genbu Kaiden
• Chun Li from the Street Fighter series
• Akira and Izm from the Akihabara@DEEP TV series
• Mia Fey from the Ace Attonery series
• Martha Jones from Doctor Who
• Osaka from Azumanga Daioh (well okay, she's not really the type of strong women, but she's the recently most influenental character the world has ever seen)
• Aerith Gainsborough from Final Fantasy VII
• Fuu from Samurai Champloo (she's a bit like Hana, only she's the one keeping Jin and Mugen in line)
• Asuna from Mahou Sensei Negima
• Sakura from Cardcaptor Sakura
• Lara Croft from the Tomb Raider series
• Karou from Rurouni Kenshin
• Tokiko from Busou Renkin
• Jun Kazama from the Tekken series
• Zelda from the Legend of Zelda
• Lisa and Maggie Simpson from the Simpsons

And that's just more than a list. There's also girls and women, including me in real life who watches Den-O and when I saw your comment, I was deeply offended by you. So, in other words, do you hate women in real life who have very strong personalities and able to shut the men up or when they stand up for themselves to men who feel they are like second-rate citizens? Do you prefer women who are annoying, naive and weak-willed? Are you guys really one-minded if you don't like girls, who at first, look useless, only that they are very important? If you're like Black Fang from the Rangerboard forums, then I suggest you go out, take another hobby besides watching Toku, and see how you look at women in real life, as well as in fiction. There, I hope that opens your eyes men.

And as for you, Black Fang, WHY DON'T YOU WATCH ANOTHER TOKU SHOW BESIDES THE KAMEN RIDER SERIES, LIKE LION MARU G OR WECKER SIGNA OR EVEN GUYFRED?! OR EVEN WATCH AN ANIME SHOW AT LEAST ONCE?! OR EVEN BETTER, TAKE ANOTHER HOBBY BESIDES WATCHING!!! GEEZ, it's like your future is going to worse than bleak for you.

Quote of the Moment - "For thine is the high school, the home and the kokatsu, A! MEN" - The Osaka Prayer that I found on the /azu/ board.

The Problem with Nightly Prayers (or why being a Catholic isn't working for me)

Most of my family will never going to understand me of why I skip nightly prayers for most of the time (that's pretty much tradition to Vietnamese Catholic families, but I don't see my cousin's family do that or the majojrity of the Vietnamese families themselves) is because of this: My most lame excuse is that I went to the bathroom for so long, but that isn't my true reason for this - it's my struggle to accept that there is a God and that I should say some prayers to him is the one that I can't accept the fact, plus the fact that being a Catholic makes me feel un-enlighten. It's a good thing neither of my family members are going to read this blog, since none of them has got a blog and start doing some emo entries on me (well, at least my mum's not computer-literate).

Because I was brought as a Catholic, my dad (the strongest Catholic of all my family) expects me to do some Catholic things, while at the same time blend in with normal stuff. However, as I grew up and my dad wants everyone to say prayers every night, I just simply lost myself between being an agnostic or being an atheist, because when I tried to pray to God night after night, the expected results aren't always working and then afterwards, I gave up that praying isn't working to someone who neither exists nor just made-up and that I should put my faith into myself and start doing things to get the work done, instead on relying Him.

Another reason is that I have secretly got manic depression and have some suicidal thoughts in my head. Yes, I was the middle child, but neither my parents nor my older sister really cared for or how I'm actually feeling, because if I say things that's anything controversial or something to do suicidal, then they want me to get psychiatric help. But that doesn't work for me, because the specialist never thoroughly looked at me - he or she just looked what's on the outside with the body language, instead of what's really inside my mind. So I keep those thoughts to myself and only tell my darkest secrets to someone that truly understands on what I feel. The same goes for my disillusions of my spiritual enlightenment of being a Catholic.

And there's no way I'm going to convert to Jehovah's Witness (too many people say that modern medicine = No-no); Evangelical Christian (their high-energy music about how great Jesus Christ is, is just too much for me, they make me want to commit suicide); Islam (oh no, I'm not ready to give up alcohol forever); Scientology (Eeew, who would want to believe Tom Cruise and the silly little Church that has some issues with animals) or any other cult religion. They're just wanna make me commit suicide after one day of joining.

*Sigh* I rather want to enjoy life without the need of a Prayer than doing that.

Quote of the Moment - "I knew it! Cheesy storyline!" - My younger sister talking about Hoshigami Remix.

Woohoo! Got Someone Converted!

I managed to convince my younger sister to watch the JDrama, Akihabara@Deep after I told her the basic storyline and that it had some anime and manga references in there.

After watching the first episode (btw, this is a Director's Cut version we were watching), she found is very amusing and she likes it! ^_^

Oh yeah! Next stop, attempting to make her watch Kamen Rider Den-O!

Quote of the Moment - "P-p-p-p-p-p-planning Time!" - Page from Akihabara@Deep. God, I love this show more than Densha Otoko!

Why on Earth Excel and Me Hate Each Other #23232

Grrr. I hate that stupid job. It's just that, when it comes to anything to do with Excel-related and either my Dad or my older sister wants me to do, I actually drop that interest immediately. Microsoft Excel and me do not get along well with each other. EVER . It's all that jumbled ICT skill crap and Spreadsheet shit, as well as a pinch of mathematics, that made me wanna murder Excel. Literally with a knife. I hate Excel more than Word. I hate putting things that was written on the sheet.

I rather have my Dad or older sister ask me to do some graphic design on the leaflets or the shop sign, than doing this Spreadsheet crap. I hate is when either of them have never recongised my artistic potentials on getting more money for my Dad's business. Especially them. They don't really care on artistic people like me. One minute they look at an object that was created by a person who worked really hard on making this beautiful and the next minute, they shrugged and leave without a comment and instead, focus on business this, business that. Only my younger sister really does care about that. My Dad and older sister should burn in Hell and suffer for making me suffer Middle Child Syndrome. I wish I was born under a Japanese family who have artistic background.

Quote of the Moment - "I knew I should have swapped Grapic Design instead of ICT." - Me talking about my GCSE results. I got a D in ICT if you want to know.

Anothr Kind of Sentai (SPOILER!)

Been watching Chou Sei Shin Gransazer a few days and I must say, I'm crying. At first, I thought it's another Super Sentai clone, but instead, it became such an emotional series, due to the right combination of drama, comedy and action all rolled into one. Let's see, I love the suit design (no surprise it's from the guys behind Ultraman) and even the villains are likable too. Damn, I felt extremely sorry for Impactors Logia when Lucia died. Even though they're the main villains so far (haven't watched all of the episodes), they do have a heart and feelings and even Logia loves Lucia (and their suits desgin were way better than the Super Sentai that I've seen). It's like Shadow Hearts: From the New World all over again.

I want to give Logia a reat big hug. So, seriously.

Quote of the Moment - "How many...dyed?" - Rufus Shrina from that FF7 skit. I lol'd. A good medicine after crying over Lucia's death and Logia's loss.

To the People who Email Me about their Problems...

...STOP F**KING SENDING THOSE PERSONAL PROBLEM EMAILS TO ME!!! YOU, PEOPLE DRIVE ME MAD THIS INSTANCE ON EVERY TIME YOU GIVE ME AN EMAIL SAYING THAT YOU HAVE DEATH THREATS FROM OTHER COUNTRIES OR YOU NEED GETTING THEIR ATTENTION OR SOMETHING!!! IF YOU WANT TO HAVE THOSE PROBLEMS SOLVED, THEN DO IT BY YOURSELF!!! I know that it will risk your exposure, but at least it's better than sending out emails that I don't know about you!

Quote of the Moment - "17 August - 5 September" - Estimated delivery date for that Okami artbook from Amazon.co.uk. Damn.

Insert GASP! Here

Is that even the Amani Riku that I know? I thought it was just Allen Walker from D. Grayman replacing him while being kidnapped by Takao or something.

Quote of the Moment - "Can I erase you? Can't hear you!" - Ryutaros from Kamen Rider Den-O

Oh Look! Emo Girl Entry Time!

It's official. I'm now more depressed than crack. I'm one of the few Vietnamese people who doesn't act like Vietnamese at all. I mean, I know I have potential for all things creative and anything to do with art and design, but when it comes to family values, none of my family members, not to mention my ENTIRE family tree has ever done art and design as their careers, though I begin to suspect my father was regretting that he sacrificed photography for computer science (I can tell. He has a really good traditional SLR camera somewhere), which he took beautiful pictures.

And then, there's the middle child syndrome in my family. Unfortunately, when I read some articles about the middle child syndrome on the web, a lot of them are really true and it's pretty scary to see why. My parents and my sisters, they're always treating me like a second citizen or they're just ignore me or blaming me for things that I haven't even done wrong or worse, all of them above. And yeah, I never take orders from my younger sister, just because she said she's got a 'job' (IMHO, that's just her favour to help our father) and claimed she's doing it for money and she thinks she's all high and mighty and would just be a very spoiled brat on telling on what she wants as long as she's got money around. But, I always think that money has more problems than solutions *coughallworkandnoplaymakeHanhaveryveryverydullgirl*. The same goes for my older sister, though that's from a different path, but still, she never undersatnds on what I'm actually saying, as well as actually feel when my younger sister and/or my parents blame me for the wrong reasons. And the worse thing is...

...my parents have more attention toward my older sister and younger sister than me, just because I'm more creative and have some potentials that would have make such an impact to gain some profit for my father's shop. ;_; I just wish they would listen to me and understand me more by reason, rather than just looking at me straight away. And yes, I'm the oddest out of my family. I need a hug.

Quote of the Moment - "I've got suicidal thoughts in my head and yet, I always discussed with my only friend that I trust apart from my family member...my brain." - Me.

Making a New Blog

Damn you Yulyang (Scions of Fate)! Why do you always make this game addictive?

Oh, well, going to make a Yulyang blog, just for any SoF people out there and telling them about my latest journey.

Quote of the Moment - "Prisoner breathe new life into Michael Jackson classic" - Yesterday Metro's headline. Erm...

EDIT: I finally made my Yulyang/Scions of Fate blog, which you can click this very blog here. And it's called 'Across the Border of Order and Chaos'. Ugh, I should have made the title better.

W00T! 100th Post!

And also...

DO NOT DISTURB ME!

As I'm going to read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows and I'm on up to chapter 10 as of now. And no, I'm not giving any summary, as I couldn't be bothered writing this down. So, haha!

And no, Quote of the Moment this time. I knew Baileys with strawberries was a bad idea. D:

More Den-O in Anime!

If you thought people in Japan just couldn't get enough of seeing more Den-O in anime, then think again!

Recently, I got interested in this manga and anime called Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei (or the official translation, according to the animation staff, called So Long, Mr. Despair) and what I found while watching episode 2 was seeing Momotaros' famous catchphrases appearing on the wall and the chalkboard! XD If you don't believe, try clicking on these two links below.

'Ore, sanjou! (P.S. Look at the right hand side of the wall)'

'When I start, it's already the climax!'

Quote of the Moment - "I'm in Despair!" - Nozomo Itoshiki from Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei (or So Long, Mr. Despair, depending on which side you're on).

Yay! Den-O's going to be an Anime

Not! I'm just kidding, but right after I watched the RAW version of Den-O episode, I saw this screenshot from this anime I don't know. What's so surprising to me, is that for some odd reason, not only does this strange-looking DenLiner appears, but also Owner, Hana and Momotaros are in there as well! O_O What? You don't believe me, why not look at the screenshot below (and if some kindly person would tell us what anime is this from, I would be grateful).



Oh yes, before I go, even Keroro Gunsou (Sgt. Frog for those who don't know Japanese), parodies Den-O too. Seriously, I think TOEI might going to do an anime spin-off of Den-O!



Quote of the Moment - "Listen very carefully. I shall say this only once." Michelle from 'Allo, 'Allo! God, I love this show, even though it's only a couple of years old.

EDIT! I know now that the first screenshot is actually from Hayate no Gotoku (or Hayate the Combat Butler for those who have the VIZ manga).